six feet under the stars.

My PAST.

2009-04-22T00:01:00.000-07:00

THE past pictures i've taken.
I miss those days.
Those nights.
I miss the people in in.
:(

took this one wet weather night.
i was hanging @ the terrace, noticed the moon was HUGE.
&& hurriedly went upstairs, grabbed my cam.:):)
it took me minutes before i got my desired photo.
THIS ONE:):)

This was taken on a bored-night at home.
:)
I juz saw my cam on charge, decided to take some pics.
&& this came out good. SO YEAAAA.:):)
my favee.

this was taken by my couz, MAJJ.
it was taken on the eve of my flight.:)
we went swimming, coz my last day kaliah.:P
got more swimming piks @@ facebook.

OBVIOUSLY.
B-O-R-E-D. && P-O-U-T.:)

YEA.YEA.YEA.
I wear glassses. NERD? nah! I love it:)
HAHA.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEH.

MWAA.:)

ORANGE BEB.:)

WEIRD. somehow:):)

JUMPING, is over now:)

some where near our place:)

PUDDLE.

skinny.blue-baloon.:)

THE forever TRIOS. <3333.>SLIDE? picturee muna:):)

nervous && shy.

we'll write a song.

he taught me to play guitar.

he taught me to be happy in life.

he taught me to learn how to accept mistakes.
he taught me how to be open.
he taught me how to be myself.
he taught me how to be funny.
he taught me how to accept myself.
he taught me a lot of things.
&& i miss him so.
MWA, onel. <33. onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_MrpKp2NjwN0/Se7dOO1xeKI/AAAAAAAAAJo/2X_0xFMQrBo/s1600-h/Picture23.jpg">she taught me to be open.
she taught me to be good.

she became my best friend at home.
she became my picture partner.
she became my best friend anywhere.
we became close.
i love her.
she's smart.
she loves me.
i'll miss her.
she missses me.
HUGS, majj. <33 style="text-align: left;">

SWIMMING GROUP PHOTO:):)

this woman, made me laugh.

she made me smile.:)

we always enjoyed a good time, TOGETHER. :)

The time we rode @@ the back of the pick up car:):)
it was bumby && windy.
but, FUN.:)

this guy, i miss.

i always had fun with him,
coz we had a lot of things in common:):)
HEEEEEEEEEEEE.we wanted to make a band.
something like mymp.
i missed those nights, we would stay up late.
&& we would like sing.
He would play the guitar && i would sing.
Play the new/recent songs && turn it into a different one:):)
HEEHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
i miss those nights. :(

my last picture with them.
the complete gang of our neighborhood:):)
from left to right:
me, onel, majj,nanay daisy, tito jun,
tita jeny, mother dear w/maegan, ate diana w/neon,
janselle, mami jeng && ate flor.<333

he made me smile.
be happy.
laugh like crazy.
stare into his puppy eyes.
hide his valuable things:)
poke him daily.
cuddle into his bed.
wear his jacket when im cold.
talk to him.
message him late at night.
say words i really meant.
listen to sweet words, he meant.
brush my hair during class.
dance me in the middle of the dancefloor.
tell me im beautiful.
gave me a rose.
held hands in corridors.
stand in the rain together.
made me feel better.
understood me.
know whats best for me.
taught me to be honest.
taught me how life is.
talked filipino funny but cutely.
tries to be honest.:)
sings when he wants too.
LOVES && ADORES Chris Brown.
lived in new york.,manhattan.
[which ever comes first]
taught me to live life to the fullest.
taught me to love him.
learned to miss him when we're a part.
dreamt of him at night.
thought of marrying him someday.
my friend.
my superhero.
my music.
my dance.
my photos.
my rock.
my piece of paper.

my classmate.
my friend.
my textmate.
my best friend.
my life.
my everything.
my boyfriend.
FOREVER.<333

i miss you babe.
i love you.

xo.

AYER trip.:)

2009-04-21T23:04:00.000-07:00

KAMPONG AYER PIKS:):)

This is one of my favourite pictures.:):)
its cute&&pretty.
BFFS?:)

i don't know where ii was looking:):)
for sure somewhere. HARHAR.
LOVE thee effect-oo.
THANKX to MEE!!:):)

I like my hair heree.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

WE LOOK PURDY HEREW.:):)
LOVETZ.

I liiikeeyy this one.
I think chelle took this one.:D

HEEHEEEEEEEE.
no comment.:)

RESSTT.?:)
TIRED.
SMILEEE!!

I like this efffect.
But, edited it a little.
Coz, it looked lightt at first.
So yeaaaaa.")")

My house's stairs. :):)
i got a coool pic heeere as well, itz juz @@ my phone tho.
SO LAZY to transferrr. :):)
HEEEHEEEEE.

MWA.

i will wait for you:)

2009-03-10T01:32:00.000-07:00

i just felt like posting this.

"it hurts to leae you here."

you made me feel i'm alive.

you had trust in me, and made me believe:)

ii'll miss you .

no matter what i have to do,

i'll wait for you:))

mr.dreamboy:)

2009-03-09T03:06:00.000-07:00

today, ugh. another monday. have to get all my teachers signature before friday. GOSH.!
I did my best in reciting this acting today. I looked like, shit. HAHA:)
Cause Mr. Dreamboy was watching me do my thing:) haha. He was GOOD tho. But, at least I did my best. And I got a signature for Filipino na:) Finally Right! Next are maths, english, ap, science. OH! so many pa. AUGHH~~
---
Filipino was kind of fun today. We laughed until we cried. Cause the others were like acting like so funny-ly.
(is there such a word?)
It was crazy. First time for filipino. As its the last subject. We always ended with a bad mood, a "sermon" and everything. But today, it was fun:)
---
as of my feelings for Mr. dreamboy. I actually dont know. He talked to me today. Gave me this look which represents for me is that he feels the same way. But, i don't know what really. He gives me this deep looks. Tells me i'm pretty in a very serious way. Cares for me so much. Treats me like i'm his girl. And practicaly everything, you can think of. His so manhid and blind. Kasi, he never had a girl. Cause his not the kind of person of thinking to himself that I would like him. And so would he.

---
any who, i better go. Its getting late. I have to get on a jeep pa to go home. :)

KR.:)

The last something, that meant EVERYTHING. :)

2009-03-06T01:05:00.000-08:00

everything you mean to me, ended today.

March, 06, 2009.

Well I thought that we could sit around and, talk for hours
About things I couldn't say to you
And things that we could never do and,
This conversation has had no face
When the words take days you can re-write and erase anything

You know my heart (so tell me all thats needed, cause i don't really want this)
Knows all this

And I'll borrow words from all my favourite paragraphs
To write about all of these faded things
We hope would mean the most to me
And
Each line is sent i have found a new pages of hope for the days when i fell like I've lost
Everything

You know my heart (so tell me all thats needed, cause i don't really want this)
Knows all these lines (cause my jealous heart really can't take that)
So I'll sing this song for everyone thats come out lost

But, I'll be ok (Is that what you want me to say)
It's called breakup
Cause it's broken
But I'll be ok (is that what you want me to say)
It's called breakup
Cause it's broken

I'll be ok
Is that what you want me to say
It's called Breakup
Cause it's broken
[repeats]

[singing]
I'll be ok, is that what you want me to say
Cause it's broken
And well, try so bad to tell me that you
Make it that you're sorry and the
Lines we said
Never meant the words we meant
Cause it's broken
Every kiss that you could ever mean
The everything that takes you back
The chocolate, rose, the kisses
That like chasing through your misses

I'll be ok
Is that what you want me to say
It's called Breakup
Cause it's broken
[x2]

Well I thought that we could sit around and, talk for hours
About things I couldn't say to you
And things that we could never do

from the day you said hi.
until this very day, i swear that i won't look at you
w/ this feeling again.
and i thought it would be for the better
you made it worse
we became close and closer
and i thought we had something
you gave me a rose
you asked a for me to dance.
And now it all ends here.
And i'll miss you, when i leave you here.
It hurts to leave you, it hurts to go.
But, as you said. If its for the better.
then i might just do it.
:(

RECENTLY:))

2009-03-01T15:38:00.000-08:00

- the past pics:)

- reeecent piccs:)

kat is back=)

2008-06-18T19:22:00.000-07:00

Hey people! =)
KATHRINE IS BACK! haha, like finally right.
Everyone must be checking my blog everyday to know whats up with my life.HAHA.
I'd start from arriving in the republic of the phillipines on May 25.=D
I arrived echech* WE arrived safely naman. I was real sad leaving brunei forthe second time. There were alot of things that happeeend during my stay. Nakakamiss.Since it'll be a long time that'll happen to me. :S when we were in the car traveling frommanila to laguna. During that travel, bigla na lang ng play yung song na' You'll always be my baby'sa radio. I suddenly gerked. GOSH. HAHa, kcthat was the song I was listening to when I was infatuated. =) correct ba? HAHA.
Basta.
Then when we arrived home, finally home=)HAHA.
Then when we went to bohol. On June 1-4. It was GREAT! =) I tell you.We went to chocolate hills. Cescar Montano's house, and got to kiss and hug him! [ for those whodon't know him, he's a famous actor in phils.] we checked in in a great resort, Villa alzhun, went tohigdanan cave, bohol beach club,bee farm, dawis church, Island mall, Tropics Resort, Sagbayan Peak,Loboc Church,TARSIERS!, The longest and biggest python caught in captivity!, Baclayon Church. =D And in cebu naman we stayed in GV hotel.Went to Ayala Cebu, Magellan Cross, Mactan Chirch and Mactan Bridge. This is the first time I really appriciated a vacation.And I found a different side of Phillipines. The whole world knows that phillipines is a un-civilized country and all that shit.But, there are some places here that are so eye captivating. Finally, In my life, I saw a white beach=D haha.The water were blue and green! Omg, nakakamiss. =D Basta! words can't describe how great and honored i am to go there=DHAHA.
FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.
Okay, first day of school in a total diffrent environment.Was fine=) AHHA. Now, I know the feeling. Luckily they were all very friendly naman eh=)MY class then was 3- Our Lady of Lourdes. For three days being in that class. And when I got friends na, that was when the registartold me that if it was okay for me to transfer to another section. Since my current class was already 49. So, I couldn't say no right?So the next day,I transferred. To a class called 3- St Anthony of Padua. Which I remembered the other day, I met a cousin of mine, which i don't really knowsa tindahan sa tapat namin. My mom told me that we're cousins. And my mom said ' Later you'll see each other in school. You don't know that your cousins. 'then when I was being transferred. I saw him, and I remembered him telling my mom what section he is.Then he became my sitmate for awhile. He's fun to be with. He's name, jan-jan. =)My current sitmate is a guy named paul. From new york. =D hahaha.We share some intelligence in english and tagalog=) haha.He somehow reminds me of janno. Weird. Seriously. I don't know in what way. Its so hard to explain.And oh yeah, there's this guy in my class i find cute=) haha.He's about two seats to my right. He's so cute when he smiles. But, I think he has a girl.Cause yesterday, and the other day I saw him walking and asking the girl to hold her books and all.So, nevermind right! =D hahaha. In my EX class naman, all of them keep teasing me to they're classmate called Lucas.He's cute, yes. Cause kan the other day, I went down to my exclass. Cause my current class is upstairs. Then, since its not your class. You can't tresspass right.So yun, I was right at the door. I was talking to a friend, right by the door. Then suddenly someone hit me something like but-to-but hit. GETS? Then when I looked back he was right in my face, he said. ' No tresspassing baby!' Cause I stepped my foot on the floor of they're classroom eh, parang i a little bitentered they're class. No tresspassing baby? HAHa. From then on, people keep teasing me to him. Kc ang dami kc tao nun when he did that to me. HAHA.Like the last week, he kept borrowing my fan during flas ceremonies, its so hot kc eh.
Sa febuary!! JS prom! =) ahha. yay!

Bah, until here. =DKathrine Velasquez is out. =)
xxxx.

omfg!

2008-06-16T01:28:00.000-07:00

kat... tagged? hahahah! miss you!

i'm home!

2008-06-16T01:13:00.000-07:00

heyyy everyone! guess who is back home? i'm here to surprise all of you again! :D i'm staying in brunei and will study here with all of you guys forever. i'm not leaving anyone, promise! i just can't live without everyone here.. seriously. whooooops. HAHAHAHA

HEY PEOPLE.

THIS IS NOT KATHRINE. this is... :b

RICHELLE! hahahahhaha

as much as i wish she'd stay here forever with us all, oh well, she still has to be in phils! kat's been messaging me (sms btw), letting me know how she's doing. well, as an obvious fact "kat is alright" (DUH) and she went to bohol a few weeks ago (sorry babe, only got the time to blog right now hehehehe) and i think she got her braces already i have no idea! i asked her to email me with a photo of her in braces though.. HEHEHEHHEHE:b

and then!

she went to school (first day) on.. i don't remember when.. but she said that.. THERE WERE SO MANY CUTE GUYS *yawn* HAHAHHA:b how right if their in phils and i'm in brunei? apalaaah~ so anyways! she's sending me an email about it so it'll be my job to update you if she found a new *sniff* best friend. hahahahahah

kidding lah, kat. i know that is just so bitter of me! :P

or her first kiss (oooOh) or find a new boyfie! HAHAHHAHA:D

i'll leave a more nicer blog post for you here, kat. mwahz. we miss you all.

I'd rather not talk.

2008-05-23T22:06:00.000-07:00

TODAY. I went to Seko-elahan. [ sekolah-eskuelahan, malay+tagalog]
That word is actually joel's. He said that word when he sent me to the bus stop tadi. I miss him already.

Packing up last night. Was soo heart breeaakking. =(

Joel was kinda crying just now. HAHA, soo cuuute. =)
I hugged him, cause I was going home na, I looked back he was crying.
I'm like. AWWWWWW. I hugged him again. =(

I'm not in the mood to blogg now. Cause, I'm crying. Cause, I'm sick. =(
In all of the days in my life. Why can I be sick now?? Grrrr.

I've got loads of things to blog about. But, I'm not in the moooood. Grrrr. =(
Tomorrow is the day. =(

I miss jona. He should be online by now, but his not.

eh, bah. Immmmaaa go. =)

I'd try and blog later~.

ily.

katz out=)

Jason Mraz - I'm yours. <3333333333333.

2008-05-21T20:38:00.000-07:00

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it

I tried to be chill but you’re so hot that I melted

I fell right through the cracks and now I’m trying to get back

Before the cool done run out I’ll be giving it my bestest

Nothing’s going to stop me but divine intervention

I reckon it’s again my turn to win some or learn some

I won’t hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I’m yours

Well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you’re free

Look into your heart and you’ll find love love love

Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me

A lá peaceful melody

It’s your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won’t hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait I’m sure

There’s no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I’m yours

I’ve been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror

And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer

My breath fogged up the glass

And so I drew a new face and laughed

I guess what i’ma saying is there ain’t no better reason

To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons

It’s what we aim to do

Our name is our virtue

I won’t hesitate no more, no more It cannot wait

I’m sure No need to complicate

Our time is short It can not wait,

I’m yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you’re free

Look into your heart and you’ll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me

A lá one big family (2nd time: A lá happy family; 3rd time: A lá peaceful melody)

It’s your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won’t hesitate no more, no more It cannot wait,

I’m sure

There’s no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I’m yours

No please, don’t complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I’m yours

No please, don’t hesitate no more, no more It cannot wait

The sky is your’s!

<3333. sone="D

American Idol and Man U. =D

2008-05-21T19:58:00.001-07:00

I woke up in early morning, cause to my kuya rj's screaming. As that early morning Man U had a game. He was screaming like a FREAK. And it waken up everyone in the house.

' I think that means, Man u won?. ' I said to myself as I rose.

I went back to bed as the screaming faded. I continued to dream on. =D

At 8.00am-- My mom was waking me up as American Idol was on Qtv[this philipino channel]. yes, the finals.
She was screaming to me that the 12 x-contestants of idols. Were singging, I'm like.

'Ahhhh?! ' . I just woke up la! =]
She left my door opened, I was still in bed. As, I didn't want to get up. I asked her to close the door. I didn't want to watch idols, was still sleepy eh. =D

BUT, at 9.30. My mom was screaming to me, and said that the guy who was singging ' I am your brother' song was the winner for the most comedy thing..- entah eh, I forgot. I'm not sure if it is correct. =D

My mom was like, ' FASTER! FASTER!! ' I rose out of my bed, rushed to there room. Seeing my little brother was awake too. So, I watched this guy sing i am your brother, there was a marching band too. HAHAHA. And cheerleaders? yeah. =D

For those who rememebered this guy, during the auditions. Paula and Randy went up to join the guy.
In this, they did AGAIN. Paula even danced too, AGAIN. Hahaha, it was hilarious. =D

One republic sang apologize. He's hot there somehow. David Archuleta joined too =D HE IS CUTE=D
hahaha, seriously. =D

Then the a lot more performancesss=D

As usual, in the end. Ryan announced the winner=D

Before I say it, when they were singging last night. David A was good. =D That's why when David C sang his last song, he cried. Because, he knew. He was going to lose.

so, yeah.

I was really suprise when ryan said that david cook is the new idol!!!!! =D
I kept saying to myself si Da cause he was REALLY good that night.
But, Da was not even close to winning the title.
Cause, 12 MILLION votes were ahead for DC!!!! xD

SHIT LA. I cried, you know. GRRR. DC's so hott!!!
Imagine, he was NOT suppose to audition right????!!!

Then, he is the american idol in the end! GOSH! =D HAHA.

Love dc man. <33333. =D

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!

Anyways, today. Si S, Si R and maybe Si A will be sleeping over tonight.? =D EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK!! yayayay!!

And i have NOT even packed yet. My mom has already. Grrrrr.
I would be in a hurry-hurry to pack on friday. Grrrrrr. =D
I didn't much clothes anyway eh. =D
So, its cooool.

I can't wait for jona's suprise. Hmmmm. I wonder. =D
HAHAHA. Love that dude<3..

Eh, bah. I better go now. I'm running out of things to say. =)

BYE.

kats out=)~

one.dos. tatlo =]

2008-05-18T22:05:00.000-07:00

I'm outta credit. Grrrr.

Its a monday, yeap. That means, a week left. - Less than. =(
But, I've got to live with it=)

Heeeeek.

So loads of things to do when I arrive in phils. Humph. Lets see.

Buy school shoes.
Get school supplies. Grrr.
School Uniform, not yet.
Get Braces. =)
Print Pictures.
Go Manila to buy the stufffs.
Go to Louie's school, for him to enrol.
Go to tuition every saturdays. [ Filipino 1 and Social Studies. ]
Paint my room.
Fix my things.
Update my friendster, deviantart, BLOG, email friends. [ god only knows when I can fit that in my schedule. ]

I guess thats about it. =)

Hahaha, I can't wait to go to phils, somehow=] HAHAHA.

On the 25th of May, 08. At 7.3o am. I'd be leaving brunei for good, for the second time.Its like, the first time didn't work. Then now, I'm doing it again. But this time, I won't be coming back in just a few months. I would be coming back in a year. =)Last night, I went to Giant. Not so giant as I expected it to be. Its like, 'Waltermart' in phils but BIGGER. =] It reminded me of phils. I saw Shiek Lee there, but I didn't bother to say hi. Cause I was not in the mood that night. But, thanks to jona. He made me feel better=]We couldn't make a choice on where to eat diiner that night. It was really funny, and annoying at some point. Cause, we were starving like crazy:) And at by 9pm we ate at huahua. I bought myself a school bag at one of the stall-thing. I know noy would love the bags in display. I love mine, cause its black with grey-ish ness and with stars and planets. OOOOOOooooh, i love it:) Its so expensive tho. Costs 30plus. :) But, I was with my parents naman eh. So, they pay la. :) And besides, I want a bag to use when going to phils :) I have not got anything for me eh. So, I just bought the bag. It was REALLY hard to pick which one. Cause, so MANY nice ones. :) Have also the pencilcases. But, I remebered I got one already. Which is so BAGAY with the bag. :)HAHA. Grrr. We've been shopping things to bring to phils now adays. Since I only got a week left. I can't freaking wait to start school, and be stared by people as I walk into that room filled with exicement in students mind and hearts. What am I saying? I can't wait to ride in that plane. My shoulder bag on me, as I pull my suitcase walking into that door and never look back into all those unexpected happenings which happened during my one and a half vacation in my homeee:) its just so weird that many things had happen, why does it have to happen when i'm not living in brunei anymore. GRRRRR. So annoying la. :) Today is monday, i wonder what i'll be doing tonight. I hope we go somewhere. :) I WANT to get the braces now :) HAHAAH. Seriously, I hate my teeth eh. Grrrr. And I can't wait to freaking lose weight. Like, talaga:) I can't somehow imagine myself being skinny. I know I'll look great and feel great, but I'll be like changing everything about myself. I bet I can dance better. I don't know eh. lets just wait and see:) Yeah, you'll see la. I'd try and update my friendster and blog and deviantart in phils. Maybe like twice a month. :) I'd try better tho. Just check it once in awhile for updates. I bet one hour in the computer is not enough. Cause, we don't have internet in our house eh. So maybe after school which that'll be around 5-ish. I'd check my mail :) Grrrr. So manny things to do. I'm in Second year High School. In a school with no air con and my uniform is long sleeved. gosh. That'll be very hot. I'd be sweating like crazy then.:( humphh.. I hot oil-ed my hair today. :) YAY. Finally, I won't be itchy itchy-ing :) Chelle was suppose to come to my house today. But, she's going to yayasan with her mommie. So, yeah. I might be online all day. eeeeeeeeek. Well, maybe not...? :) This song is so in my mind right now. Thanks to my kuya rjay who sent me this song :) The other day, I was singging this song. He eventually joined in. I was like "huh?" HAHAHA. Kesiiian my brothha. x]

Happy Birthday KATHS! :) 16 girl ;)

HAHA, I better head off now. :)

Kats out~. <3

PRINCE CASPIAN&KING PETER! <3

2008-05-16T00:09:00.000-07:00

Yesterday night was the bomb!!

Thanks to chelle's dad, who invited me to watch with them:)
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK!!

For those who don't know.

Last night, we WATCHED NARNIA2: PRINCE CASPIAN.

HE IS SO HOT! :))
AS IN REALLLY!! ME AND CHELLE WERE KILIG KILIG-ING THROUGH OUT THE MOVIE. :)

okay, I should stop capitalising now. :)

They are so freaking hot. GRABE!
Si prince caspian and king peter!
OH! gosh!! :)

Si king edmund then, he's cute..

They are all so growned up now. :(
HAHA.

I love prince caspian. Chelle's one is King Peter. :)
Hehehehehehe.

We both find the prince and the king hot. :D

xD

Chelle kept giving king peter a flying kiss. Which was funny :)
HAHAHA.

We were totally enjoying the movie..:)

It is totally our favourite movie watched in the cinema:D
Hahahaha.

buti na lang sinama ako!!! :)

Sigh, buhay naman oh.
Cge na, I'm going off now.

<3

Locked.

2008-05-12T04:47:00.000-07:00

Omg people.

Hahaha. .

Me and my brother got locked outside the house. It was rather stupid at some point. :]

Cause we were helpiing my kuya rj carry his stuff to his car.
He's moving out eh. Finally? Kidding. x]

Its so weird without him you know. :)
I kind of miss that dude.

Today. All day.
I watched futurama.

There is nothing else to watch in this house. Rather than simpsons, spongebob and futurama.
Since I watched all the simpsons and spongebob already. Like a million times already.

I kind of like futurama you know. :)

My daddie's not home yet. I miss him.
It's just so weird when he's not home.
Its already 8-ish. And he's not yet home.

There's no one to talk to my mom.
No one to look at the computer screen while I blog about things.

I really miss him.
And I don't know how I can live without him.

Even though I'll be living in phils now.
My dad's still there. He calls me.
Buys me stuff. Tell me not to get thin. He is the only person who totally understands me.

I feel like crying now.

I miss sitting in that car with my dad in the driver seat. Driving me to mall.
Driving me to school.
Its the first time my daddie did not come home by 5. :(

He always tells me that I'm his favourite girl. [ well, duh. I'm the only girl.]

Anyways.
I better go now.

Katz<3.

- wala na dapat sabihin.

May 11. May 10. May 9. :)

2008-05-11T07:34:00.000-07:00

Apparently I haven't been blogging for three days.?
I didn't know that. Seriously.

YESTERDAY&YESTERDAY,YESTERDAY.

Yesterday was the tenth of may. Oh gosh, why does time travel so effing fast. :S
We celebrated niks birthday at mall-y. :)
It was such a b-l-a-s-t. x]

We watched, ' what happens in vegas ' . It was so lawa i tell you :)
Hahaha, we watched it like 7.20 na so. Obviously we didn't do any jalanjalan. :) unlike the usual
jalanjalan at mall:)

It was rather a, i should say, weird night:) Hahaha, because of reasons:D
Its not about niks. Some else alright:)

Afterr the movie we head to arcade which was full of gangster-like people. So, weird:)
I'm not into that kind of crowd okay. I wasn't feeling good that night. So,*ehem*.
Back to the story.
We eventually got into a karaoke booth thing. And sang. Well, I did. :)
Niks wasn't. She was just holding the mike. She was tooo busy talking to mj. So, yeah.

No body knows this tho. When I was singing. Btw, I was singing always be my baby.:(
When I was singing, I was thinking about him and everything. :(

Seriously, no one knows what I was feeling and thinking that night.
This song I kept on repeating over and over again, exactly last week. At this exact time of last week.
:(

I was singing. Every thing of what happened to us that day. Every single second of it.
Every cute little detail. It was coming back to me as I sang that song.
The way he looked at me.
The way he whispered to me.
The way he put he's head on mine.
The way he pinced my cheek.
The way he talked to me.
The way he held my hand.
The way he cared for me.
The way he made the moment so perfect. :(

And, I miss every single bit of it. And I miss the person who did it.
But, it hurts me so bad inside that everything that happened will just for nothing.
That everything was nothing.
It has to mean something.
I know it was only a day.
But, it was perfect.

I'm not asking for anything here.
I'm just a girl who types whatever I feel right now.
And what I feel right now is this.

I'm tearing up inside.
And he doesn't even know.
He's just too effing busy with his ex-girlfriend who he had just gone back with, after me being there for him when he broke up with her.

I cried for him, I never cry for a guy. When I was a kid, I thought it was stupid to cry for a guy.
But, then I cried for him. So I guess I was stupid.

I cried the whole day.

I went to richelle's house to tell her. I didn't cry cause I just couldn't she told me things.
I was okay at first, but I let it all inside. I was thinking she'll think I'm crazy cause it was just a day. So, I didn't say more. I was thinking it'll just result to a fight. So, I could not say anything.

Telling people what happened felt good. It was the best, letting it all out. But, at that point I was getting more hurt by the minute.

No one really knows what I feel for him right now.
I saw him today. And as I waved my hand, I was running away inside. I just could not face him.
At first I was looking around if he was in the area. But, then he wasn't.

But, as I was leaving. His car came by. I was bleeding. :(
I was about to cry. But, I just could not. As my mom was by my side.

For a week, There was no time I didn't think of him.
Everywhere I go.
Whatever I do.

He's planted on my mind. He's glued on my mind. :(

Everyday, I put on a face. Everytime I go out, I pretend to be happy.

He's so stupid to not know what I feel for him. Very stupid.

On May 9th.

Me and the trio had a picnic/jog-aton. x]
I couldn't say much. I didn't talk much. Cause thats what I am in the group.
Me and gel were just watching sar&chelle talk they're asses off :) love you girls<3.

I keep thinking still. But, they just don't know whats up with me. No one really knows.

May9th was fun.

I still bleed inside.

*sigh* I better head off now.

Katz<3.

- you know who you are, it hurts.

I wish you'll learn how to realize that

your already hurting someone.

Cookkies 101.

2008-05-08T03:31:00.000-07:00

Cookies 101. J

Today. It has been a day.

My cell was low bat last night. Couldn’t charge cause my brother was using it.
So, I couldn’t use my cell until the next morning which was this morning.
I didn’t know the time I woke up.

It felt a different morning. I didn’t bother to notice or to think.

I had a feeling for baking cookies today. So I did.
But, before that.
Ka-chat ko si mj. At sino pa ba yung isa?

Eh di cxa.

Sa gusto at sa ayaw ko. Sinabi ko, kelangan ko eh. :(
At yun, alam na nya.. *sigh*.

And so ayun , now he knows.

And, while I was making the cookies. I felt so angry, cause sana hindi ko na lang sinabi.

Lagi ko iniisip eh. Eh, ewan ko ba..

Chelle was suppose to come to my house today. And help me bake cookies.
But, her dad didn’t allow her. So yeah. I did it on my own.

I came out a lot you know, I wasn’t expecting it.
I was like making it really really small. :)

Heeeheeeeeeeeee`.

David Arculeta’s so cuuuteeeeeeee. x]

Haaaiii na ko. Buhay talaga oh :)
Anywayyyyy, I’m going noww. :)

He’s chatting with me. And I don’t know what to say to him. :(

LOVELOVELOVE.

KATZ<3.

- ewan ko na kung anong gagawin ko.

Its magic. (8)

2008-05-07T05:01:00.000-07:00

Its magic. Yeah, it is :D

Gosh.

Today is a crazy day. :)

The weekend has been crazy:D

Hahaha.

Sorry i have not been. BLogging :)
heheeeeeeeeeee`.

So yeah. Umm.

Nung sunday. I went to mall right. With a friend;)
Something happened.

We watched ironman x] Its such a MUST movie to watch. :)
He held my hand. Hahaha. I mean, yeah he did.
Which is such so unexpected. Like, sobra. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek`.

I mean, I don't want to like go into details. Cause that'll be weird :D
Basta!! There were so many kilig moments x]

And oh yeah. :) He sent me home. :D
Hahaha. Soo cute la that time :). eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek`.

Then he kissed me and hugged me before leaving the car. :)

HAHAHA.

That night, we started chatting until late at night.
Until, around 1-ish. He has school the next day eh and he has a test pa.

So, yeah. This past few days has been weird :) in a GOOD way:D

But, Tadi he told me he and he's ex fought. ex ha. :S
I mean, it has been a week okay. Why don't he like move on?
I was like fucking pissed cause, I've always like been there for him.
And I don't know. I guess I'm sick and tired of it. Cause, I'm getting hurt.

He still loves her.

But, just whatever. :)
I have no idea what to do right now.

I miss him tho. He miss me too. Heeheeeeeeeeee`.

Anyyyway:)

Today, I went to best's house again:)
But, this time. I went home early. Which was weird. Cause, My dad was there early. So yeah.:S
Weird.

Cgecge na. Immma goooooo~.

He's not online. Damnit. :(
Hewas tho :D

BYEBYE PEOPLE. :D

- kung alam mo lang ang nararamdaman ko ngayon para sayo.:)

Ikaw Lamang <3

2008-05-06T07:35:00.000-07:00

This song I wrote for you:)

Di ko maintindihan
Ang nilalaman ng puso
Tuwing magkahawak ang ating kamay
Pinapanalangin lagi tayong magkasama
Hinihiling bawat oras kapiling ka

Sa lahat ng aking ginagawa
Ikaw lamang ang nasa isip ko sinta
Sana’y di na tayo magkahiwalay
Kahit kailan pa man

Ikaw lamang ang aking minamahal
Ikaw lamang ang tangi kong inaasam
Makapiling ka habang buhay
Ikaw lamang sinta
Wala na kong hihingin pa
Wala na

Ayoko ng maulit pa
Ang nakaraang ayokong maalala
Bawat oras na wala ka
Parang mabigat na parusa

Huwag mong kakalimutan na kahit nag-iba
Hindi ako tumigil magmahal sayo sinta

Sa lahat ng aking ginagawa
Ikaw lamang ang nasa isip ko sinta

Sana’y di na tayo magkahiwalay
Kahit kailan pa man

Ikaw lamang ang aking minamahal
Ikaw lamang ang tangi kong inaasam
Makapiling ka habang buhay
Ikaw lamang sinta
Wala na kong hihingin pa
Wala na.

Ikaw Lamang - Silent Sanctuary. <3

Hahaha, fyi. I did NOT write this song:)
I wished tho. But, its related to what I feel right now:).

- Ironman, Mahal na mahal kita. :)

Ignorance:)

2008-05-04T05:20:00.000-07:00

People. From my point of view, I don't know what happened to my other post.

:S

SO, just ignor it alright. :D

Tomorrow is here.

2008-05-03T06:11:00.000-07:00

- I complied. Getting off my chest, the story ends. With out you. (8)

- Seven years - Saosin.

Hii..:)

Today was so totally weird BUT o-kay day :)..

Weird beacuse, He was being so weird and funny.. I was chatting with him. And he was like,

' Girls playing tennis are hawt. '

I mean, He doesn't usually says ' hawt ' . That is so unlike him :)

And the other one was like, ' i can;t cancel that thing that's shaped like a marshmallow saying hello ' .

what the hell right? :) heeeheeeeeeeeee`

But, I forgive him anyway. :) Because, as he said. Every saturday, he goes all hyper and crazy cause its a saturday. I don't get him sometimes. :)

I love it tho. Hahaha.

Ummmm, okay.

Next topic. I know your bored now.

Today, I went out with my mom. We went to yayasan. At first, we went to giordano.

I bought myself a pair of pants:) eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek`. Some one messaged me:D

[ after a few seconds. ]

oooops, Message again. :)

Hahaha. Cge, alis na ako.

I'll message message na (:.

Tomorrow, I'm going out with mah child-hood friendddy :)

Hahaha, I'm actually ganna buy stuff(:

We're going to watch ironman! YAY!

anyway, Bye people.

Enjoy your week end(:

- I think I am. :)

Katz<3>.

Come on. :)

2008-05-02T05:34:00.000-07:00

It just randomly played in the laptop. And I'm loving the song. :)

Come on
And finally the silence,
looking out, looking back across the sky,
Trying to find a meaning,
knowing that I just left it all behind
Still I smell a lingering softness
Where did she go, how did she go, I wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me
Come on, without you I'll never feel the love inside
of me
Come On, you know that we belong
come on, come on
Thinking back before her,
I never knew the meaning of alone
Still the flag is feeling foreign,
I live the day to escape into a phone
Speaking of a world not real then
where did she go how did she go, I wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me
Come on...
She's coming, She's coming here to me, I'm needing,
desiring to kiss her now, I'm living for her,
breathing for her, singing for her fairytale.

Its entitled ' Come on - Ben Jelen ' . :)

I've been like searching for this song for months. And finally I found it :)
Enjoy people:)

The days of May.

2008-05-02T04:39:00.000-07:00

Hi people. Another day of May..

I can't believe its may. A few more weeks and its bye-bye brunei. :(
You know, I somehow can't STILL believe I'm in brunei. Hahaha.

Just came from Chelle's house. We got soaked by the rain. But, Its alright. It was FUN. It reminded her of something tho. :)
We took lots and lots and LOTS of piccctttttuures at THEE dock. x]
Go check her friendster to see. Like some one's interested. Heeheeee~.

Today is Friday. Gosh, Friday. It feels like I just came last week. :S
I miss..him. :)
Then, He's not even online. Humph.
But, he said he'll be coming over next week. heeheeee. I don't want to give too much info. Later he'll know who he is. x]

Anyway, Tomorrow. I'm going shopping with ma mottheeerr~ YAY`
The next day, Sunday. Going Mall-ing with a child-hood friend.
NOOPE, I ain't got no feelings for him aiiiight?
I'm hangging out with him causee~ He just BROKE up with he's girl friend..
Well, actually they broke up last week. And yes, He still hasn't move on and He wants her back. Like another person I know. But, thats another story. x]

Oooookay, So you won't be like waiting for the other edition in this story. I'd just tell you..
The other person is chelle. x] heeheee~. I bet no one is actually reading my blog right now x]

Hahahhaha. I'm lame huh? :)

What the fuck?! I just got signed out of msn?!
Okaayy, anyway. x]
What else can I say anyway? x]

Cge na nga. Aliiis na ako.
Baaaabusshh lovies.

`Katz.

- I miss you:)

Red Guitar Keys. :D

2008-04-30T22:04:00.000-07:00

RED GUITAR KEYS.

is the name of my band :)

Haha, what the eff am i saying?
Anyway, I'm so bored right now So i decided to blog. [ which is actually the last thing on my mind to do today].

Currently listening to:
FACE DOWN- THE REDJUMPSUIT APPARATUS.

(:

nothing exciting has happened to me today actually.
And, honeslty, My first weeks of vacation here in Brunei has been okay. Until Sports Day ended. sigh.

Well, The days going to chelle's wasn't boring. But, afternoon at home is so boring. I remembered last year.:D

Hahaha.

Cge na, alis na ako.
Wala naman ako masasabi eh. (:
Baaaaaabushhh. x]

-fyi, i'm anjo's girl now ;D

Spagethiiie POUR the day ;D

2008-04-30T02:36:00.000-07:00

Its 5.38 in the afternoon.

I look to my left i see my celly. I look to my right its the mouse. (:
I'm loving*slash*hating my life. He ain't talking to me. And I fucking miss him. :(
Gosh, I don't eeaally now what I'm feeling right now. GOSH-NESS.!

I've been online for already more than two hoours. I watched Bring It On 1&2 just know and Simpsons. I took about around like, 4-ish na nga eh. Grabe, first time I took a bath that late.

~ HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JANS!! :D [ I know you can't possibly read this right now, but anyway.. I love you girl and happy birthday love:D ]

I found this song 'Never Know' by Jack Johnson in my celly. Cause, I always download songs.. but always forget to like listen to it.

I found out something today. I was like so pissed right. Then Jona when online. When I was about to tell him about 'him' that he ain't talking to me.. Right there, he said he got to go. I'm like what the fuck? In my head I'm like.. GOD!! I hate it guys who are like that.. But, i don't hate jona.

I love that dude actually. (: hahaha.

I just love the wallpaper in the cell. guess what? (:
Its the sky..falling. Haha, kidding. It's just the sky.. telling me to live my life. (: hahaha.

Anyhow, I bettta goo. Going out tonight.~ (: LOVE IT~

Enjoy your evening everyone(:

Cheeeeerrs.

-Katzo.

-Love, i STILL miss you.

Bitch Power.

2008-04-29T07:44:00.000-07:00

Omg...
Stuupidd fuccckinggg powweerr.

SO, annoyingg la. We just had a black out.. or brown-out whatever you call it:D
Its like soo weird, only in ourrr flaat got black out.. I'm like what thee eff? :/
Haha, but.. It was funn..in a way. Cause, i got to talk to my parents about stuff..hahaha.
Weird~

The black out was like for an hour..During, the black out.. I was messaging, mj. Cause of a problem.. I encountered like a few days ago, to be specific.. It was a saturday night. :

But, i ain't saying anything about it:D.. If, i'm settled with it.. I'd share it to the world. Hahaha. Okay, THAT was weird.. hahahaha.

Okay, Let me tell you about whhat happened today.;

I woke up at like.. 11-ish.:D haha, ate LUNCH. Hahaha, lunch eh noh. (:
Then, I watched a Simpson dvd till like 12-ishh. After laughing my guts out watching it.. I took aa bath, yes i havent bathe yet [ well, that time. ] Then, dressed myself. Well, Duh~~. Tapoz, I interneeeted.. Until it was 1.30. Cause, i got to change.. No wait, I was already dressed then. I was getting ready pala. :D Haha, getting ready to go to Chelle's place. The usual, afternoon. (:

Haha, I had a blast you know:D nakaka Lurkay!! Cause, we went liike bike-ing. Went to the Shell to buy ice-cream & chips. Cause we wanted. We walked there, btw. And whats so stupid about it, is that. Its just a few houses to my house.. I still didn't go home. Cause like, I didnt have my bag.. :D

Haha, my dad saw us actually walking. Hahaha. Then when we bought the food. We were walking to her house.. She saw the sky so lawaa..:D Then she decided to eat at the rooftop. Which was an awsome idea.. And we talked about stuffs.. We were somehow crazy..in a good way.:D hahaha, we were talking about how great the sky was. How unique god's creation was.. About the galaxy. The moon. And not the least, The STARS.. shining before us. :D

HAHAHA, love that girl;D

Anyhow, its getting late and my eyes are getting blurryyy.. I can't somehow read the words I'm typing. Hahaha, oookay. That was weird.

So, cge na:D offff to bed. Wait, not yet:D I'm off to the couch.. ManU has a game tonight.. heeheeeeeeeeeeeeee~~.. My brother's soo excited. He's starting to sing songs now..

Sigh. I'm so confused right now. But, i still feel happy.. which is weird. Haha.

Anyyyyyywayyyy, I reallly really have to go now. :)
Good Night lovvvviiiieeeees.. Sweeettt Drrreeeaammmss.
For once, I'd lovee to try to smile while i sleep:D

Loooveeeee. Loooovvvveeeeee..

Katz... ;D

- boy, i miss you..

i'm back you people!:D

2008-04-15T04:01:00.000-07:00

Hi people. .

its katz here.. rememberrr?

hahahaha..

just came back from school.. yes, i'm in brunei.

anyway, so lazy to type.

nights. muahhz

Starter.

2008-04-13T06:26:00.000-07:00

Hey there. Hehe, this is Richelle right now and Kat told me to make her a blog sooo now, here I am, writing in her blog. HAHAHAH :)

Good day, lovers!